Shower Me

My mind thought of you until til the water ran cold

Colder than the icebox that rest in the cavity once containing my heart

Why did I let you go

The shower reminds me of the tears that ran down your face

And I can’t wash away those liquid stains that ran down your cheeks

The water gathers around my ankles

like the cemented feeling of me not chasing you…

I watched you walk away but my feet never moved

I figured if I stood there you would know where I would be if you ever decided to come back

But now I can stop my mind from running, running it never stands still

The steam creates this fog but you come to me vividly

Visions of you are always clear

And I can feel you near me

Here--- closer than you’ve ever been to expressing the way you feel

Closer than the barriers we peek a round to see each other

Nearer than the great lengths we’ve taken

To just be friends

We visit each other in our imagination

How we love to make pretend

Make believe that we don’t see the signs

But as I look at the water rolling down the curtain

I can see the sweat

I watch it roll down the small of your back

As you bury your face in my neck

Passion nestles there

Desire runs so deep I can feel you breathe for me

Needing, wanting me

I can feel what beats for me

But the fear of what we could be snatches away like the curtains

Draws back like the wrinkled skin of being in here too long

Being in this space like we’re wasting time

I turn the knobs the same way I watched you turn away that day

You pulled me close to feel my warmth

That day you put your hands to my face

Skin cold but I didn’t shiver

We locked eyes and I felt it quiver

We stole that moment in time

And we been fighting to give it back

Every time I hit the shower I think of you

Because I’m still trying to come clean

Inspired by life and Aion Clarke The Biggest Mistake

I'm a Cheater

Where do I begin
when I don’t want to start so I will never have see the end
I want you to hear me clearly because our love is blind
Blind to the accessories that makes your silhouette a little wider than the frame of an Adonis
Blind to the way things are and the ways in which our love is perceived
I wish people knew they were being deceived because the shallow box they’ve put us in is deeper than they can conceive
And I’ve been faithful to what we have but I want to cheat
I want to stand other the side of death clutching it’s defeat
Because I want to love you forever
I want to live beyond possibility screaming beetle juice bettle juice never saying never
But cheaters never win and I can’t pretend that I don’t know we can never be and we will never see the end
In a time where people make promises full of empty phases like til death, in sickness
They vow eternity
under God but with a quickness from day one I told you we wouldn’t see many more annual remembrances of the first time I said you had my heart
every dog has its days and although I can never earnestly give you tomorrow I gave you my all yesterday
I give you more to reflect on than many have to look forward to
Because I can’t hold you back
You’re my angel and I can’t keep you from returning to heaven
I’d rather cheat
Cheat
Standing on the other side of the odds holding its defeat
Never throwing in the towel but folding it sweat drenched and putting it back in it’s place
We never lost knowing we would finish last because we weren’t supposed to be together in the first place
We ran this race with patience
My hand in yours
Looking at each other to avoid the break up that is our love on borrowed time
No one will ever understand our journey because only we knew our destination
And had virtually the same itinerary
We’re both going places but we can’t make it to heaven, together
But I can give you forever because
I want to cheat
Standing on the other side of sin holding its defeat
Knowing lust of the flesh was never qualified to compete
Because I never loved you sexually
I read all the rules, knowing I couldn’t get around them
As I reflect we are separated because we mirror each other below the hip
Its hard for others to comprehend
But easy for us to understand
That there’s no sin in love
So instead I decided to cheat
I will see you in heaven my angel because our love was stron
g enough to know that
we could never make it to heaven together
Because we can’t cheat death
But I’d rather die once without you and see you again
Than die the thousands of deaths for trying to hold on
Because cheaters never win