Shower Me

My mind thought of you until til the water ran cold

Colder than the icebox that rest in the cavity once containing my heart

Why did I let you go

The shower reminds me of the tears that ran down your face

And I can’t wash away those liquid stains that ran down your cheeks

The water gathers around my ankles

like the cemented feeling of me not chasing you…

I watched you walk away but my feet never moved

I figured if I stood there you would know where I would be if you ever decided to come back

But now I can stop my mind from running, running it never stands still

The steam creates this fog but you come to me vividly

Visions of you are always clear

And I can feel you near me

Here--- closer than you’ve ever been to expressing the way you feel

Closer than the barriers we peek a round to see each other

Nearer than the great lengths we’ve taken

To just be friends

We visit each other in our imagination

How we love to make pretend

Make believe that we don’t see the signs

But as I look at the water rolling down the curtain

I can see the sweat

I watch it roll down the small of your back

As you bury your face in my neck

Passion nestles there

Desire runs so deep I can feel you breathe for me

Needing, wanting me

I can feel what beats for me

But the fear of what we could be snatches away like the curtains

Draws back like the wrinkled skin of being in here too long

Being in this space like we’re wasting time

I turn the knobs the same way I watched you turn away that day

You pulled me close to feel my warmth

That day you put your hands to my face

Skin cold but I didn’t shiver

We locked eyes and I felt it quiver

We stole that moment in time

And we been fighting to give it back

Every time I hit the shower I think of you

Because I’m still trying to come clean

Inspired by life and Aion Clarke The Biggest Mistake